I love the gentle pushes and prods Heavenly Father loves to send me. This will come as a giant shock to many of you--I am not a patient person. I do not like waiting. I love to have lists and a plan. Many years of practice has gotten me to the point where I can enjoy and relax a bit. However, those tendencies still exist. Since Kindergarten I have had a plan and graduated college was the conclusion of that plan. Then I created a new plan and started working. Then the plan changed and I moved to Orem and began a new job. Now--I have absolutely no idea.
After sweating, crying, and LOTS of lists I still had no answer. I have so many options that it was beginning to feel overwhelming. I felt I was failing and not doing enough for the world. My daddy gave me a blessing that has helped me so much. My faith, testimony, and understanding of the Priesthood has grown significantly over the last few years. I fasted prior to the blessing and it was rewarded. No earth shattering things were said, but rather the gentle reminders I have always known. My parents have taught me well. The conclusion--Be patient. I am where I am supposed to be, doing what I should be doing, and living how I should be. I am not perfect and I still have LOTS to learn but I am doing just fine.
I will continue to be patient and see where life takes me. The one thing I have learned--my plan will change. In the mean time I do plan to create some sort of social network, travel the world, and spoil myself and those I love!
After sweating, crying, and LOTS of lists I still had no answer. I have so many options that it was beginning to feel overwhelming. I felt I was failing and not doing enough for the world. My daddy gave me a blessing that has helped me so much. My faith, testimony, and understanding of the Priesthood has grown significantly over the last few years. I fasted prior to the blessing and it was rewarded. No earth shattering things were said, but rather the gentle reminders I have always known. My parents have taught me well. The conclusion--Be patient. I am where I am supposed to be, doing what I should be doing, and living how I should be. I am not perfect and I still have LOTS to learn but I am doing just fine.
I will continue to be patient and see where life takes me. The one thing I have learned--my plan will change. In the mean time I do plan to create some sort of social network, travel the world, and spoil myself and those I love!
I'm glad we're getting out tonight for girl time! I do understand to an extent what you are feeling, I'm a big list and be here at this time person. (I think that because we both are, we made great roommates :D ) But to change and lean away from that still drives me crazy sometimes, I'd like to think I'm getting better....hum...and priesthood blessings are great aren't they. See you soon!
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