Reality Bites. Yes, I know it's life and all that jazz, but still it bites. I've found many effective ways to hide from it, stall it, or just plain ignore it. But somehow, SOMEHOW, it effectively comes to back to bite me in the butt.
I've put life semi on hold for the last few months. Trying to not face reality. Apparently, it was a bad idea. I haven't been happy. I spent so much time coming up with other realities I would rather be a part of. As hard as I tried to create them, they fell apart over and over and over and over and over. Stupid. My alternate realities somehow couldn't mesh with my current reality. Who da thought right?! With this concept slapping me in the face, I tried to escape to other realities through books, movies, and all the other aspects of media. While good for a time, still nothing worked. I still had to put the book down or turn the well my computer off and face what was. Everything I did was only a temporary fix. Eventually reality would come crashing down and ruin my perfectly created world.
Today I sit here and face reality again. Reality and I had a great break from each other the last week or so. A fantastic break actually. But once again the staring contest will begin. I can no longer run from reality. So today I choose to face it.
Here is my Reality:
I've put life semi on hold for the last few months. Trying to not face reality. Apparently, it was a bad idea. I haven't been happy. I spent so much time coming up with other realities I would rather be a part of. As hard as I tried to create them, they fell apart over and over and over and over and over. Stupid. My alternate realities somehow couldn't mesh with my current reality. Who da thought right?! With this concept slapping me in the face, I tried to escape to other realities through books, movies, and all the other aspects of media. While good for a time, still nothing worked. I still had to put the book down or turn the well my computer off and face what was. Everything I did was only a temporary fix. Eventually reality would come crashing down and ruin my perfectly created world.
Today I sit here and face reality again. Reality and I had a great break from each other the last week or so. A fantastic break actually. But once again the staring contest will begin. I can no longer run from reality. So today I choose to face it.
Here is my Reality:
- I've got to unpack my suitcase today and wash underwear because I'm completely out.
- Somehow the kitchen and my bedroom are dirty again, even though I haven't been in them for almost 2 weeks.
- I need to out in public and visit the grocery store; while I love my Chocolate Covered Cinnamon Bears, they don't necessarily make the best breakfast ever.
- My running habits need to be a BIT more consistent. Only because that silly half-marathon in only a month away.
- As much as I try to, I can't cut chocolate out of my diet. Yeah, I have an addiction. I'll deal with it when I'm dead.
- I make life too complicated. My Ah-ha moment this year so far, Life is simple--I just do a bang up job of making it more difficult.
- I'm single. It gets lonely. It bites. It sucks. But its my life and I have a lot in it.
- Time to be a full grown-up and make the big decisions--school, love, and how to keep life from getting out of control.
- My life is simple, chaotic, ever-changing--once I make a decision it continues to throw new ideas into the mix.
- I have to make the most out my life right now as it is. Life is never greener on the other side just a different.
- I must trust that Heavenly Father knows me better and trusts me.
- I'm not alone, even though it feels like it sometimes.
- I can't hide anymore. I do a great job of hiding from the things I've afraid will hurt. I'm afraid of not knowing what will happen. I take risks, but not the risks that really matter. Just the little ones like traveling and trying new things.
Reality is here. Always has been. Now I must go face it.
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