I haven't really sat down and done nothing in the last 10 days. Don't get me wrong I like being busy but lately I have been exhausted. I never seem to have enough sleep in my body to fix the problem. I'm sure I am not the only person in the world who feels like this.
My stress level hasn't helped I'm sure. Between the master's thing, taking on a bigger role at work, cramping in time to spend with all those people I love, and learning to run a house I haven't had a lot of time just for me. And by that I mean sleeping. I have started my exercise program, got my massage which helped a LOT, and drinking water like a mad woman but it doesn't seem to be enough. I came home early from work--instead of going to the gym--with full intentions of doing the laundry, cleaning my room, and playing my craft room, which has sadly been ignored. What did I do instead--sat on my couch watched Bones and crashed before it was even over. So now I am awake wishing I was asleep and would sleep for a solid 12 hours before my next shift tonight.
I've made a few big decisions. I am going to hold off starting my masters. I took every step in the application process to get it done and felt funny about it the whole time. The close and close I got the for frustrated and unsure I became until I stopped. I'm a little dense so sometimes Heavenly Father has to throw the big stick at my head. Once I made that decision all the anxiety, frustrations, and doubts went away. Apparently I am supposed to do something else this year instead. I am more than fine with this the more I think about it. More time for people, my hobbies, and figuring out my role at work. My manger has asked the charge nurses to take on more responsibility. I now have 7 people I am responsible for. I'm excited it will push me to step out of my comfort zone and be more assertive in situations. Pray I can do it. The other one is I am going to start attending a family ward. Spiritually I need the stability of the family wards not the awkwardness of singles wards.
So yes I am tired. Nothing new really. One day I will find that place where I have all the energy in the world. One day I will have help. One day I will wake up fully rested. One day I will get all my projects done. One day i will find the magical faeries who fold laundry. One day. One day.
My stress level hasn't helped I'm sure. Between the master's thing, taking on a bigger role at work, cramping in time to spend with all those people I love, and learning to run a house I haven't had a lot of time just for me. And by that I mean sleeping. I have started my exercise program, got my massage which helped a LOT, and drinking water like a mad woman but it doesn't seem to be enough. I came home early from work--instead of going to the gym--with full intentions of doing the laundry, cleaning my room, and playing my craft room, which has sadly been ignored. What did I do instead--sat on my couch watched Bones and crashed before it was even over. So now I am awake wishing I was asleep and would sleep for a solid 12 hours before my next shift tonight.
I've made a few big decisions. I am going to hold off starting my masters. I took every step in the application process to get it done and felt funny about it the whole time. The close and close I got the for frustrated and unsure I became until I stopped. I'm a little dense so sometimes Heavenly Father has to throw the big stick at my head. Once I made that decision all the anxiety, frustrations, and doubts went away. Apparently I am supposed to do something else this year instead. I am more than fine with this the more I think about it. More time for people, my hobbies, and figuring out my role at work. My manger has asked the charge nurses to take on more responsibility. I now have 7 people I am responsible for. I'm excited it will push me to step out of my comfort zone and be more assertive in situations. Pray I can do it. The other one is I am going to start attending a family ward. Spiritually I need the stability of the family wards not the awkwardness of singles wards.
So yes I am tired. Nothing new really. One day I will find that place where I have all the energy in the world. One day I will have help. One day I will wake up fully rested. One day I will get all my projects done. One day i will find the magical faeries who fold laundry. One day. One day.
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